i'm having a horrible day...i'm crying and i'm so sad...i miss my boyfriend, exboyfriend now, sooo very much it physically hurts. i've been praying so hard that God bring him back to me when God feels the time is right, and i've been doing so good at holding my faith strong, but right now, i'm so very sad and all i want to do is sleep and never wake up. please pray for my heart and pray for my ex boyfriend, that God be with him. pray God forgives me if my prayers are selfish right now and that's why he's not answering quickly. i've prayed all day today that my day be good but the negative thoughts started early this morning. i'm so sorry for anything i've ever done to offend You, Lord. Please bring him back to me. i'm so tired of crying and tired of the depression.

Update added Fri Oct 24 13:32:24 +0000 2008

i'm still praying like crazy...every hour. please continue praying. my heart feels like it's ripping out of my chest. everything i see, reminds me how much i miss him. it's painful.

i found these lyrics to a song by marc cohn...i wanted to share..

~~How many roads you’ve traveled
How many dreams you’ve chased
Across sand and sky and gravel
Looking for one safe place

Will you make a smoother landing
When you break your fall from grace
Into the arms of understanding
Looking for one safe place

Oh, life is trial by fire
And love’s the sweetest taste
And I pray it lifts us higher
To one safe place

How many roads we’ve traveled
How many dreams we’ve chased
Across sand and sky and gravel
Looking for one safe place~~

Submitted Thu Oct 23 10:50:18 +0000 2008

1. depression
2. urgent
3. RELATIONSHIP
4. restoration